Friday, January 09, 2009

Lessons Learned while Substituting

This past week I began subbing again. It is a very flexible job so I can always pick it up when we aren't traveling much. I had a class that was a handful this past week and I loved it. I loved being around children again and I loved watching them and listening to them. One little boy was telling me how cool it was that his daddy flys a black hawk. I was instantly proud that we live in a military town. Another little fellow was telling me how excited he was when his dad came home from Iraq. WOW!

So here's my lesson- one little girl was finished with her assignment and was granted permission to work on the computer in the back of the room. Another little boy was so interested in what she was doing and why she got special permission. I had to remind him to "just worry about himself" and remind him to complete his assignment. I immediately heard God whisper- You too Emily- Just worry about yourself. ugh. Not a lesson I wanted to learn, or a word I wanted to hear.

It was as if God was saying- Just worry about yourself. I'm trying to work in your life- You keep looking at everyone else and thinking they have all the luck, they get all the blessings. How could it be so easy for them you ask, but you don't know their full story. You don't know what is going on behind the scenes and you don't know MY PURPOSES. Just trust ME to do what I need to do in each and every life and don't lose faith in Me when things don't work out as you had planned....

Thank you Lord for that reminder!


Melanie said...

Always a good word. Remember the scripture we memorized a while ago: Psalm 37? "Do not fret because of evil men or be envious of those who do wrong; for like the grass they will soon wither, like green plants they will soon die away. Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice o your sun like the noonday sun. Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes." (vs 1-7) I know you're not really talking about people who you know are doing wrong that you are envious of, but it's frustrating when you know you're trying so desperately to do right and things still don't go "your way." Key phrase there - your way, haha. But, whoever it is you look at sometimes, do not fret! :-) Trust, delight, commit and be still. God promises it will be worth it. I love you!!

Michelle said...

Wow, that's a great lesson, Emily. I often get caught up in my self-doubt and wonder why we can't seem to get ahead. I needed to hear that too - thanks for sharing.